Life with three is crazy. I don't know why I didn't believe it when people told me it was a game changer. I mean we are literally outnumbered. I simply don't have enough hands! (Ethan's famous one liner right now is, "mom, I only have two hands!" - I know the feeling.) It's honestly been a lot tougher than I imagined it would be. My days are nothing short of crazy. The days are long but the weeks are so fast.
Right now in the thick of it, it feels overwhelming at times. Especially since when John works he leaves before the kids get up and comes home after they go to bed. Even with Aaron in school, it still feels exponentially harder than with either of the boys when they were babies. Maybe it's the lack of sleep and the daytime obligations that prevent me from taking naps. Maybe it's because the boys often take advantage of my having to nurse all the time and sitting in the chair. It's probably a number of things. I just take it one day at a time. There are good days and there are really crummy days. I feel I just need to hang on a few more months until we can get a good routine down.
Chloe is finally sleeping for a "long" stretch of 5-6 hrs at night. The only problem is I don't know when that stretch will be. So if I put her down at 7 before the boys, she may sleep a few hours and then let me nurse her and put her back down at 10 for her long stretch. This is the most ideal. But sometimes she sleeps her long stretch starting at 7. That means for me to get the benefits I would have to go to bed at 7. Not happening!
We were on the fence about having a forth child. Well, I was at least. John has pretty much said he's OK with three since before she was born. I have a feeling our family is complete. Time will tell. For now, I'm happy with my beautiful family of five.